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[13 Apr 2010|01:57pm]
It's only 2 PM and today has already been shitty.

Worst nightmare I've ever had, woke up, cried for a while, talked to my best friend and was reassured that everything was fine.

Watched some of a happy movie, went back to sleep.

Woke up to a text from another one of my best friends, test results came back positive. Her cancer is back. She doesn't know if she needs chemo or radiation. She is strong, I know she can get through this, but this isn't something one should have to go through twice at the age of 20. I love you dear.

Now I get ready for class, then go to the Spotlight meeting, which will cheer me up more. Come back for a bit and then go back for Last Coug Standing, which will cheer me up more.

On top of it all it is Teffy's birthday and another friends. Happy Birthday.

Today is an emotional day.
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[09 Apr 2010|01:48am]
make make make make a move.
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[06 Apr 2010|12:10am]
Goals for the summer:

GET A JOB
visit Pullman at least once, preferably more
jump off the cliffs
go for a walk every night, at least 30 minutes
learn how to use my telescope completely
get the software set up so that I can run stuff for telescope on my laptop
go on a date
take medicine regularly
learn to drive manual
DRIVE THE PORSCHE before mom sells it



I'll go through and edit this list once I think of more things to add to it.
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[16 Mar 2010|01:05am]
A litmus test would not work, you're silly.
Finding out a guys perspective is interesting, especially when they're drunk and not being serious.
The other perspective was much more helpful.


I guess I'll find out in a week-ish.

Fingers crossed?
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[06 Feb 2010|03:36am]
you realize that the night before you were in bed with her, no less than 24 hours, she was in that same bed with another guy. I don't want you to get hurt, I care for you too much. Even if it's at my expense, I want you to be happy.
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at 11:11 [07 Aug 2009|11:12pm]
a change from the usual 11:11 wish,
I wish for things to get better.
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[11 Jul 2009|06:22pm]
can't seem to let go.
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[28 Jun 2009|02:38am]
I don't know what I want.
I don't know what to say.
I don't know what to do.
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[16 Apr 2009|10:13pm]
Dickon Sawyer.
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hello old friend [07 Apr 2009|05:37pm]
it's been awhile.
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[22 Apr 2008|07:03pm]
ok
well
I'm a terrible person
and I feel like shit


whatever.


this really really hurts my feelings

things just keep getting better and better.
(not)
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[21 Apr 2008|10:36pm]
I'm angry.
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[24 Oct 2007|06:53pm]
so this is the best website ever
besides the original

http://heroeswiki.com/Main_Page
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[14 Oct 2007|12:54am]
whatever.
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wow. [25 Apr 2007|09:21pm]
[ mood | sad ]

today was eye opening.
i met a survivor of auschwitz, magda schaloum. i saw the numbers on her arm, i listened to her story, i cried, i felt pain and sorrow for her, i was glad she was alive, i hugged her and shook her hand. she is 82.
how can the world be such a cruel place?
how can people be capable of so much hate?

i'm watching american idol, a show i despise, because they are having a giving back show and showing poverty all over the world and taking donations. i wish i had money to give to people in poverty. i wish i could help so much more than i am able.

i think all of the good people left on earth should move here,http://skytonight.com/news/home/Super-Earth_Found.html.

i hope the world changed someday.

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[15 Apr 2007|10:23pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]


Who are they? we don't know anything about them other than the fact that they are going to be gassed.
We don't know how old they were,what they were like,or who they were.
It's so sad that people can be so full of hate and ignorance.
How could Hitler be such a cruel man? how is it even possible that people are that cruel?
Today is national holocaust rememberance day.
We must always remember.
Today I went to a church service and listened to a survivors story,it was amazing. He was a child during the holocaust, and his mother saved him. She came up with genius disguises and marched right into the belly of the beast unnoticed.
his story was amazing. perhaps it is online somewhere, Peter Metzelaar.

"For the dead and the living we must bear witness" -Elie Wiesel

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining.
I believe in love even when not feeling it.
I believe in God even when He is silent.
That was an inscription found on the wall of a cellar where Jews were hiding from the Nazi's.


God bless all of the millions upon millions of people killed in the name of an ignorant dream. God bless those who survived.

The holocaust was absolutely horrible,and it is not the only mass genocide. So many other people have died and are dying when they don't have to.




goodnight.

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[20 Mar 2007|10:41pm]
seriously
i can't believe i said "star wars" instead of "star trek"
there is no comparison

wow
i had a major major MAJOR brainfart...or a nuke went off in my head


wow
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[05 Mar 2007|08:14pm]
i just dont even know anymore.
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[26 Feb 2007|10:20pm]
heroes is seriously the most amazing show ever
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[26 Jan 2007|09:01pm]
sweeeeet
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